TEMPERED!

Assalamualaikum..updated again..today my day was so bitter! i don't know..since early of this morning, i think i know the point was..it's all about my best friend..we were accused to have a relationship behind my lover's back while in fact, we were just friend..i'm aggravated! my ecstatic was slowly diminished! ya, perhaps this entry will be more longer than usual, since i want to let my infuriate feels punching the page like the real momentum when i apply it physically on the wall! geez...

OK, let me get one thing straight! i'm a loyal lover..i did not and never playing with someone's heart..if you consider so, go ahead! i'm standing on the truth..just my way is not that brilliant like you want me to be.

this morning my tempered raised, and i can't get hold my self..

in my days, i used to be a patience guy, but today, just today, i hit the wall and let the pain out! truly, my anger can't be obscured..i failed to refrain my self from being good, well and nice either. see, thing just keeps getting worst and worst..

and tonight my boyfriend called, i do really happy..i'm having chill when i heard his voice, but guess what? just temporary..i blamed everything on my anger and suck mood today..when i emotionally at higher temperature, i can't really-really accept even a smallest mistake made! my mother knew about my habit! i only deal with perfection. seriously today, i went to my old habit!

well, just today..i'm hoping my day will make up great for tomorrow..

and i'm so sorry my bebii, i didn't mean to hurt you, it's just my anger go all over me, i can't really see the truth me by the time we are talking on the phone...plus, i'm not in my good condition due to the rainy and ex/in-hale were a bit..you know..i told you about that right..i always love you..

my best friend, prince sawamura help me to set things right..plus he gave me a song to calm myself down..i have to admit, it's not helping but i do appreciate the way he cares about me. 

i can't tell my friends this, well, i guess they'll know it by their self latter..since some of 'em are my followers..today was tough emotionally.. all i can do was hit the wall.. =.="

finally i make myself right by sitting alone on my bed, typing something and sang songs as loud as i can..it helps..i got my smile again, and all the thing i have to settle in is my relationship..i really have to beg for his forgiveness.. ALLAH, please help me with your blesses..